Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Dramatic Voiced Post. *read: Cheese factor 101%

This is the last night, nay the last time...I will ever be 22 again.
In mere minutes I will cross the line from 22ndhood, to 23rdness. The difference you say, is only 1, but it is so much more than that for me. It is latitude my ship will sail over that will never cross my path twice, it is a sunset my eyes will never witness again, and it is a stroke of the clock my ears shall not hear once more.
This is the end of a long arduous journey of being solidly into my 20's. I worked three long years to get here, I toiled, sweated and climbed my way to the top, and my reward is...
eh I don't know.
Being 23 seems kinda blase if you ask me.

But seriously. I look back over the seemingly short span of my life, and I see a simple past that is crescendo-ing into...something. Something will happen soon, I just know it. Even the past 12 years of my life mostly dedicated to school, (ok honestly mostly to marching band, social activities and catching up on tv series, let's be honest) and now this trip I stumbled blindly into. I kinda wish that at midnight I'll get cymbals crashing, or some fireworks signaling a great something will now occur...now that I'll be older, wiser and oh so much more self aware.
Here's how it will go.
The digital clock will turn over at midnight, I'll look at it, staring at 12:00 thinking maybe an unexpected event will happen, and then a simple change to 12:01. Nothing grand, loud or even slightly different will occur...but I'll know this.
I'm in China, I'll be learning far more things than I could ever imagine and the time I spend looking back only negates from the time looking here and to the future. I could've done so many things different yes, but nothing I've done has made it impossible to be right where I am...so something went ok. There is peace in my soul because there's something I've known for such a long time...I'm so completely and utterly blessed to have the life I have. That's it, in a nutshell (macadamia to be exact, since we have some in our living room right now).
Here's to leaving behind 22, and stepping into being 23. An age I hope only brings me more wisdom, grace and peace as I walk toward 24, 25 and probably eventually like 89.
Cheers.
And since the internet won't let me post this...my dramatic timing will be off by a couple minutes. Please ignore that and focus on the gooey content instead. Thank you.

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