Last month, the orientation for this year's students to China snuck quietly upon me. I know the program continues on after each year..but it seemed impossible for it to start up again so soon! We were the last group to go to Dalian, at least for this year and maybe ever. The idea of that saddens me greatly. Here I have all this knowledge of that world, and no one to impart it on! I could barely contain my excitement for the orientation though, and had to physically shush myself in order to stop answering all the questions about previous years or experiences.
If you've ever met me, you know the very act of holding back answering a question I feel passionately about is near impossible. After the meeting ended, I felt as if I had finally come full circle, the experience had come to a final, contented end.
Inner peace has found me, and seems to be here for the long haul. (I really just imagine a soft cloud-like character with kind of beanie baby shaped proportions, which occasionally rests on my shoulder, or lovingly on my chest while I'm sleeping.) After nine months of struggling with adjusting, "finding myself"...I've found an inner quiet calm. All the angst-y posts I wrote now seem a bit over-the-top, but I also know I needed to write about it to process what happened. Sometimes I felt possessed by the need to write, and I did until it was worded out of me. Now I have few urges to emotionally explode in the form of a blog, so expect less...emotioning from now on I guess.
The semester, my second to last semester I might add, is half over. Time is hurtling past in a concerted effort to make me hurriedly soak up the last drops of an easy college lifestyle, and then shove me out into the world. I'm now really realizing what people meant by, "It'll be over before you know it".
Honestly, that phrase irks me. I am exceptionally organized in what's due, or what's coming up in my schedule, so its pretty much guaranteed that I'll be aware before anything ends. It's written in my planner, and I probably have some kinda calendar event or something set in my phone...it's not that hard.
Am I ready to graduate next fall?
I think I'll have soup for lunch tomorrow, thank you for asking. Next question please.
